Utopia

I dream of a supreme world
A beautiful world of love and peace
when people love themselves, and alllll surroundings too
when they learn to spread their wings
and leave the shame behind
no money in that world
no poverty, no wars
and no ego too
I wake up and i find
just me, myself and I
in a day will come true
and that is when i sleep,
it remains a dream
a dirty cat she said, and a blind too!
I heard that made her day, she told me in her purr
does it bother you??
to touch that little cat, i can't understand
i prefer my dream
if that's what you'd do

Revive

Just like a warm breeze in a freezing cold winter..
like a deep breath
like a sincere smile
Just when I thought I forgot how to feel

Irony

things never go her way
never the way her heart is wishing
the night she was whistling a song for him while she was heading home
happened to be the last night they spoke
she loves him still, she told me..

Silent Screams, Tears in Heaven

Have you ever felt helpless, so helpless to move..
Have you ever felt like leaving the steering and just let the car go wherever it may
Have you ever felt, your heart is breaking twice.. at the same time

 Have you ever felt heavy, so heavy that the ground can barely hold you
That your move is too slow and you can barely walk
But you can't stop because you'll collapse if you do

 Have you ever missed the moments where you feel so light
That you almost could fly..
 Have you ever felt your body is rageously rebelling
Your nerves are not responding and your limbs are stubborn and revolting
Have you ever felt, your heart is getting broken twice? at the same time

 Have you ever had something to say but you couldn't
'Cause the circumstances were not at your side
The surroundings were all against you
And you just wanna say it but it's not getting out
And it's blocking all other words
That you remain speechless and silent till it's too late to say anything

Have you ever felt prisoned in your body, in your dimension, in your current time
Have you felt like your soul is loudly screaming inside
Those silent screams shattering every thought
That you just wanna vanish

Have you felt like you've been killed
and then been killed over again, but you're still breathing..

Have you ever had tears in heaven?

Your best is worth your worst

in pain

Broken and in pain, I walk under the rain. Totally in vain, my shields are back again..

too tired

too tired to focus.. too tired to sleep
just throw my heart away.. i'm too tired to weep

the more i'm happy the more i'm sad.. the more i'm good the more i'm bad..

Contempt

It's way beyond that, you fucked up mediocre typical piece of shit..
and i find pleasure in hating you!!

I just admire the golden streetlight reflections on an empty wet street at night

Frozen Rain in The North of Heaven

A peace of ice lingers within, too cold that it hurts
She smiles, absently
Entering the gates of heaven was bizarre, more than she thought it would be, moreover, full of promising fanciful illusions
She's still scared of proceeding forward, terrified of the unrevealed
She learned in her earthly life to face fear of the unknown with curiosity
Nevertheless, she's not sure she can afford another wound, much deeper this time
She knows, nothing is for free, a simple mistake will inflame her soul to vanish
Does she have the choice anymore, she wonders..
Is it too late to go back home? is she too lost to be saved now?
Her perpetual state of stillness immobilized her heart back on earth, her coping mechanism was to always seclude herself to her comfort corner of silent careless solitude, "If I don't allow anyone near me, I won't get hurt", she thought, "If I don't care, I won't be vulnerable".
She wanders until she reaches the frozen rain, she deeply inhales the smell of it, like the last breath of the drowning, peacefully washing her itching doubts away
Awakened to the devil around her, she shivers, he looks her gently into her confused eyes
His sublime smile is a beautiful lie, he holds her tightly and implies: "Trust Me"..
Bewitched her soul, she forsakes her guardian shields, gives in and flies away

The Ultimate God

He's the man who thinks he knows it all, and judges accordingly
he's the man who looks in the mirror and sees the ultimate perfect God
and I miss the friend he was..

The magic of a moment

In a moment you waited for so long, so long that u forgot you were waiting.. you drift inner tears, hiding them not to ruin it, tears of joy and fear!
Of happiness, of not believing you're living a moment of your dreams, tears of fear, scared and terrified to lose it again, terrified of it being just another dream, another illusion of yours, just a mirage.. either way, you smile, the excessive joy prohibits your heart from beating further, you surrender, no more fights with yourself, no more fights with your heart, it's exactly what you've been wanting, and it's exactly the perfect timing for eternal peace!

In your mind without an identity

Did I? Tell you the story of the angel who cuts her wings off in front of your temple, waiting for you to let her in, but you didn't, so she went back, full of sin.. covered with your bloody ego.. Threw herself silently into the lake of secrets, to land there, staring at the dark sky.. watching you laughing around?

Did I?Give you the chance, to enter my life, feeling you messing with my paintings, drawing and sketching your face everywhere on my walls, in my memory, fooling around, walking with your brushes, painting your adventures all over my mind.

Did I allow you to leave me armless, frozen, and never get the way to call your name loudly in this world? And you left.. with a big smile, you left.

Did I? turn a half dead in your memory, living in your world like a shadow without an identity.. seeking your smile in others' faces.. touching their warm hearts, thinking it is you living inside?..
Did you? leave me outside alone, it's freezing here, and I am not feeling well.. Come, and take my hand, get me out from this cold cold lake.. Or just let me faint..fade and just, let me..live again.

-Quoted: Unknown-

home

take me home, where i belong

Anna

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What can I call it?

And I still smile when I remember ^_^ and my heart shivers of joy when i wake up, i'm in deep love with my sweet dreams..
Despair is for people who know, beyond any doubt, what the future is going to bring, nobody is in that position, so despair is not only a kind of sin, theologically, but also a simple mistake, because nobody actually knows.. In that sense there always IS hope..

Ryan

I can't understand!

it's just too simple for me to understand

How can you...

How can i possibly feel what i barely thought i wud, then get frightened

How can i possibly find what really interests me, and let go

How can i fear my feelings, pre-judge, predict what's gonna happen based on previous failures

How can i love what i see and forget it the sooner i leave
How can i quit as quick, and give up on the comfort silence

How can i possibly feel all that joy and slip on the first obstacle, surrender to the first challenge.. rather than facing it i escape to my own corner of solitude..

how can i possibly enjoy my comfort zone of loneliness and still fear its long lasting constant companion

can i be more rude? do i even want a reason to?

what if all i needed was a thought.. a reconsideration... a heart beat!

what if my words were understood, what if that was figured

wud it ever matter? meh....

It's almost 5 a.m and i still can't sleep