Monday, February 27, 2017

Why I love him

Why i love this man:

He's a curious explorer with an insatiable desire to wander the world aimlessly and breath life within at a pace that suits his precious heart beats.
He's the smarter of us and the calmer, and most of the times wiser, he brings with perfect sweetness peace to my heart and knows how to reach to the deapest of my core and cuddle me with his flow of love that leaves me surrendering to him.
He lives in the world with peace and as he values his life, he does the same to others, he respects life and earth and the inhabitats, and he does it all gracefully.
With him I've been inspired endlessly and my life took great turns and my thinking shifted in interesting ways that without him, I wouldn't be the same.
Conversations with him are always filled with exciting discussions and higher lever analysis and deeper thoughts than the average, he fills me with the desire to hear more and know more.
His charming sense of humor and the laughs he brings to my life are at the essence of my joy and happiness, he makes me happier everyday.

I love this man because it's the only thing I can do around him, he leaves me no choices.

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Visit Me

Come visit me in my dreams
I'll love you everyday
make love to you each night
in heaven we'll stay
no struggles no conflicts
just only pure joy
peacefully yours
i'll love you everyday

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Constantly Evolving

I stumbled upon my blog again today, and started reading some of my previous posts.
Couldn't go through all of them at once, 243 posts aren't easy to go through in one session.

It fascinated me how much I evolved and changed since the date of some posts. Some of them are so negative and gloomy, I know that I usually reach out to my blog when I'm sad, angry, frustrated or just need to let out something, rarely when I'm positive, but I still think I evolved and changed a lot since then.

Now I have an opposite positive outlook to life, I love life, I love people, I have lots of hope and my Utopian used-to-be-dream now seem achievable.

Few observations and most of the posts are 6-7 years old:
- I was negative in life, now I'm living it positively and happily, appreciating every moment of it.
- Pain (physical and emotional) plays a huge role in shaping my identity, my thoughtsbeliefs and ideology.
- I'm extremely sensitive to pain.
- My capacity to love, my passion, my giving, ability to forgive, all fearlessly, is overwhelming

Like Nothing

He left like i'm nothing, like i don't exist, or in best cases, like i'm just an object, a neglected piece of furniture...
I don't exist.
He just promised a couple of days ago he won't do this.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Dangerously highly addictive

I like you, i wanna love you, and i wanna hate you at the same time for the bad timing, you're dangerously highly addictive, i wanna cry, and i wanna laugh with you.. you're amazing!

Monday, October 20, 2014

Sleep paralysis

I just had my 2nd sleep paralysis last night, i had the first one around a couple of months ago, but it was like a drop in the ocean compared to last night..

The problem with sleep paralysis is that you can never tell what's real and what's not, i woke up so many times just to find out i was still "dreaming"..

It was terrifying, and it was real.. i ended up waking up at 2 am and scared to go back to sleep.. i hope it won't happen again!

Some people strive to achieve lucid dreaming or sleep paralysis, but i say run away as far as you can!

Friday, October 3, 2014

Camping packing checklist

Wet wipes
Facial cleanser
Cotton pads
Facial creams
disposable tooth brush
Hair cream
Hair kit, hat
Hair scarf for sun/bandana
Nail protection, nail oil
Lip balm
Nail kit
Inflatable pillow or nick pillow
Air mattress/airbed
(Optional) Hammer for setting up the tents
Microwave bags, Tupper wear for water protection, water proof bag
Sleeping bag
Camping Chair
Portable Speakers
Extra batteries for the head light
Passport - if traveling
Pen, small notebook
Credit Card, money, id, health insurance card
Portable charger, car charger, charging cable
Face towel
Extra clothes
Swimming suits
Snorkeling kit - if snorkeling
Foot splints - for night relief
Sheets or ground cloth - to be put under the airbed
Cigarettes & Lighter
Snacks and Juices
Corn & Mushrooms for BBQ, lettuce for bread replacement (for gluten-intolerant ppl like me)
Aluminum dish for hot bbq
For women - feminine care (pads, wet wipes, tampons..)