Thursday, September 30, 2010

Under The Moonlight

Each night, we would lay down on the roof, right under the moonlight.. Talk for hours till we get bored of talking or we get out of words, we wud enjoy the comfort silence and the chilling breeze, or play songs and sing with them and laugh like there's no tomorrow, no sun to rise...

We wud do stupid and silly things and just laugh about them, but most of the time, we're just silently laying down, gazing at the moon and the surrounding stars on the black sky, speaking out our thoughts when we have the energy to, and enjoying each other's company..
I love you my best friend!

[Music] hehe

Fuck You Very Much

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Monday, September 27, 2010

Reality Is Perception # 2

"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one." – Albert Einstein

"Everything you see or hear or experience in any way at all is specific to you. You create a universe by perceiving it, so everything in the universe you perceive is specific to you." – Douglas Adams

It was great only while it lasted

Why is it only when ppl die we find out we love them? is it the retrospective effect?
Why do we realize how much we need someone only after they leave?
It is the damn retrospective effect, again. Indeed, things are always exaggerated when you look back at them, like magnifying them, what was good is great, what was bad is misery.
Looking back at the past is tricky..
It was bad only while it lasted..
It was great only while it lasted..

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Angry Thoughts

- Everything happens for a reason, usually to merely piss you off!

- Overthinking gets you no where but to destruction, or depression.. I'd recommend Nike's "Just Do It" better!

- Some things don't just fade away with time.. they stick around till u think it's lasting forever

- They say "The night is darkest before the dawn", but seems like the sun has forgot to rise!

Discovering Me

When i'm happy, I'm hyper and silly..
when i'm in love, i'm flying, calm and quite..
when i'm angry, i'm rude and ugly..
when i'm sleepy, i'm high..
when i'm sad i'm disconnected, isolated..
when i'm alone, i'm not really alone i wud be having arguments and fights with myself that usually end up with depression..
when i'm working, i'm extremely focused..
when playing with my cat, i'm silly as my cat..
when i'm dreaming, i'm in heaven.. when in pain, i'm silently smiling or crying alone.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Pain Kills Pain

It does, temporarily though!
Psychological pain temporarily kills physical pain and vice versa..
The ultimate time to have a piercing or a tattoo is when you're in extreme psychological pain that you will be totally disconnected, separating the mind from feelings that are causing anguish.
And the perfect thing to do at the gym when you get tired or whenever you have to do sth that will cause you physical pain, is to listen to a music that usually gets out your rage and numb your senses..

That's probably why self-harm is being used as a coping mechanism which provides temporary relief of intense feelings such as anxiety, depression, stress, emotional numbness and a sense of failure or self-loathing.

Some ppl wud cut themselves when in overwhelming emotional pain, some would find pleasure in piercing themselves, others wud get high while in pain.. it might as well reflect a way of self-punishment, blaming the self for causing the associated pain, sometimes would be a form of "crying-for-help", although I didn't find anything related to self-punishment during my readings about self-harm, but I still think they are sometimes related.

Self-harm appears -among various other behaviors- in self-cutting, self-piercing, tattoos especially relatively large ones, weed addiction, drugs, alcohol addiction, head-banging and even self-biting.

It often becomes a response to profound and overwhelming emotional pain that cannot be resolved in a more functional way, and may become a means to manage pain, in contrast to the pain that may have been experienced earlier -through abuse- over which we have no control.

And the very funny thing is that some animals when abused, go for self-harming to find relief too!


Once again, I'm amazed!

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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Reality Is Perception (Excerpt 3)

"Hamlet: Do you see yonder cloud that's almost in shape of a camel?
Polonius: By th' Mass, and 'tis like a camel, indeed.
Hamlet: Methinks it is like a weasel.
Polonius: It is backed like a weasel.
Hamlet: Or like a whale.
Polonius: Very like a whale.

Now the whale, the camel, etc., were not in the sky. The clouds are mere aggregates of water-drops. The whale, etc., were in the minds of Hamlet and Polonius. But they could both see the cloud. Thus an image of the cloud was also in their minds, Moreover they knew it to be a cloud. Yet they could "see" animals in it. This is the important fact about mental phenomena. The physical cloud in the sky is just itself, made of water-drops. The mental cloud is multiplicity. To begin with it is a pattern of brain-processes, just as physical as the water-drops. But it is experienced (i) as a could, (ii) as a whale, (iii) as a camel and so on. We cannot dismiss these as "illusions" for it is just the occurrence of such illusions that we seek to explain - besides why is it illusory to see the thing as a whale but not illusory to see it as a cloud? And how did Hamlet know it was "really" a cloud?"

Reference: Learning, Remembering and Knowing - Patrick Meredith

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

[Music] A False Hope to Avoid A Simple Mistake

Time can be the answer, take a chance, lose it all
It's a simple mistake to make to create love and to fall

Despair is for people who know, beyond any doubt, what the future is going to bring.
Nobody is in that position.
So despair is not only a kind of sin, theologically, but also a simple mistake, because nobody actually knows.
In that sense there always is hope.

Floating Thoughts

** "Any statement will get revered and over analyzed if put between quotations" - Dareen

** Dead ppl' wishes get sanctified, living ppl wishes are considered needy demands!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Lady Disgusting Ugly, Lady GagaBeef

What an ugly introduction to an ugly world for teenagers to imitate..

Lady Gaga wearing a dress of raw flesh to 2010 MTV Video Music Awards
I wonder how they could stand her stinky smell !!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Rejection & Self Reliance

People don't like anything they are not, they tend to reject what is different.

[pretty much fun as Mr. hotdog and the bread lady]

For instance, if you're democratic the odds are you probably wont like dictators, if you're smart you wont stand stupidity, and if you're rebellious you wont really like compliant ppl.
If you're disapproved, rejected or hated, that's ok it's not the worst thing that can happen and in fact I doubt it's even a bad thing, it might mean -among other possibilities- that you are different, or simply yourself.
The bottleneck of it all is to learn how to handle ppl's rejection, and not long for their acceptance or want their approval.
Self reliance is the key.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." Emerson

Monday, September 6, 2010

Out of the trash

It's like when all these lost revolting thoughts and revived pains emerge in a union of undefined chaos that can pull you down to mind-states you never knew existed, you still absently interact with the surroundings attempting to stay connected despite you never been as much aware as now that the connection has long ago evanesced, the raging hatred and rebelling spite are no more to be smothered or ignored and your neglected instincts will not settle with the mind, the illogical ruthless society will keep going on the same monkey-way approach of following and demanding while all is subject to the same action and reaction to the same ancient availability theory, the nested doubts and paranoia within are endlessly itching and the conscious won't rest.. I hope you don't understand

I will not live out of me

"I will not live out of me
I will not see with others' eyes
My good is good, my evil ill
I would be free."

Sunday, September 5, 2010

"life is wasted in the necessary preparation of finding what is the true way, and we die just as we enter it" Emerson


Appreciating my lovely crimson Tunisian TaqToqah..
I love it :) and in a weird way, I miss Tunis!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Memory Leaks

Is there a way, any way, to fix memory leaks in a human system?
I've been suffering with my weak bad memory since forever and it's driving me crazy lately, I forget things, events, people, appointments, my phone.. whatever might come to anyone's mind! I even forget to eat sometimes..
I forget important things that shouldn't be forgotten, sometimes things that I really long for, I would passionately wait for a certain day to come, and when it comes I totally forget all about it!
I would commit to an extremely important appointment, forget my phone at my car and totally forget about it!! It's like i'm having Alzheimer.
I know some would suggest using reminders, but if I already forget my "reminder-device" then it's not gonna work, I tried switching my watch to the other hand to remember important things, it worked for a while then I started forgetting to switch it.. I'm tired of forgetting !!