Monday, June 28, 2010

Talk to the hand

For god's sake when I say that I'm not interested in hearing what you wanna say that means I'm LITERALLY "Not interested" in any level !!!
you really don't have to drive me rude or push me off the limits if you simply get what I said.
I don't care about what you're saying and I don't care if it bothers you and I'm not even sorry for that, it completely contradicts with my thoughts and it pushes my buttons, trying to just merely listen gets me bored and i'm really not into the mood of debating !!
It's silly and it's so lame in my perspective, I don't enjoy it, it annoys me and I don't wanna distract my attention by it, so you better jump off to something of a relatively more importance to me, or just leave me peacefully alone!

[Edit]: Don't even try to twist it all into an attitude problem in me, cz it gets even more boring this way

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Cold Feet

Okay, this is one of the times where I have to make a decision. and as usual, I get cold feet!
Today, I'm scared! for the action I'm about to take tomorrow is irreversible.
I'm about to cancel my Saudi residence for good, which means I'm gonna be completely independant now, the chance of giving up and going back to "daddy's home" will be deleted off the options list. Now I'm totally on my own. Not that it hasn't been the case in fact it's been this way more than 8 years now, but now I know that there will be no return.
I have to admit, a part of me is eager for it, another is terrified.

Thursday, June 24, 2010


Once upon a time, there was a little princess living happily in her own utopia (or so she thought).
She loved redbull and cats, she hated seafood, and she always wanted to fly.
One day, a bold prince (or so she thought), invaded her stillness, stole her heart, and gave her wings instead.

She wandered the world flying with her wings, she went high so high beyond the sky, she was happy that her happiness would fill up the whole universe.
The prince stayed there for a little while, when the princess first fell for him (that happened to be too fast), she knew then that she had never been in love before (although previously she thought she had)
They shared laughter, and she loved and accepted him just as he is, nevertheless, she slipped once or twice.
One day, the bold prince was gone, completely gone.. disappeared!
but not to oblivion.

The princess flied all over utopia looking for him, she flied until her wings bled and shred to pieces too small to matter, she couldn't fly no more.
"She ran. she ran until her muscles burned and her veins pumped battery acid. Then she ran some more."
She was too disappointed that then she destroyed utopia! and had nothing left to lose.
She loved him too much to hate him. She sleeps to dream of him, but wakes without him there.
The princess has learned to be happy again (or so she thought).

Years ago, when i was younger,
I kinda liked a girl I knew.
She was mine and we were sweethearts;
That was then, but then it's true.

I'm in love with a fairytale
Even though it hurts.
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind
I'm already cursed.

Every day we started fighting,
Every night we fell in love.
No one else could make me sadder,
But no one else could lift me high above.

I don't know what I was doing
When suddenly we fell apart.
Nowadays I cannot find her,
But when I do we'll get a brand new start.

Monday, June 21, 2010


Regardless of governments, this is what's happening when following common sense without thinking.

Thursday, June 17, 2010


Kharabeesh is a new family name, created by Dareen Kharabeesh :)
Kharabeesh is a very cool fam. that does not interfere with the privacy or freedom of choice whatsoever of any member of the family.
Only open minded accepting ppl are welcomed to join the new family.. [hmm well then I take this sentence back! since this rule already contradicts with the fact that Kharabeesh family has no rules whatsoever and Kharabeeshians can do whatever they want including being closed-minded or judgemental..]
By joining this family and replacing your so-old and boring ex-family name with this new one, you will gain a family name for free, and a lifetime gaurantee that no one will ever ask you to stick to a stupid common concept called "family standards"..
You are free to do whatever you want, whenever you want, however you want!
In Kharabeesh, Kharabeeshians do not have to follow any traditions or common sense!
All ppl are accepted to join regardless of their gender, religous views (if they have any), ex-family, sexual orientation or intellectual levels!
If you are interested in joining this liberated fam, feel free to replace your ex-family name with Kharabeesh :)

Enjoy :)

Wasted !!

Ten full days of my precious life are wasted annually!!!
Fuck this, I'm not doing this anymore! I shall take a decent vacation n go rock some nice place rather than this piece of shit!

Monday, June 14, 2010

I'm not perfect

No, I'm not, not even up to my own perfection standards.
In fact, I don't even want to be perfect, because I love myself just the way I am, & I'm proud of all my pits & falls too because they too are parts of who I am.

I don't like perfect people.
Because they're not real, and when I tend to describe something I'm attracted to by perfect, I mean that it's perfectly real in it's own with the whole package as one.

Friday, June 11, 2010

I Love Nerds

Yup yup.. I'm gonna have to confess.. I do Love Nerds!!
They say gurls love bad boys, well, here's a difference. I love bad nerds... I like those clever smartasses..
The perfect minds they have and the intelligence in them attracts me in a weird yet intense way that I can't afford to resist!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

It was a moment

The moment at which I lost what was left of the admiration, was like a huge rock shocking my forehead and making me finally realize what was there to see!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Happy Birthday To Me :)

26 years ago my tiny feet were still kicking their way out to this life passionately eager to live it filled with curiousity toward it, well I have to confess it's been a real tough journey so far..

But the love and support of the people around keeps me always moving on, no matter how hard life gets no matter what I face I still have the energy to move forward, to lighten up my life and others, and to share the love-rush I have with the lovely people around :)

Thank You !

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Mere Presence

What if someone's mere presence can get you high so high that you won't feel your feet anymore..
What if someone's mere presence can drug you, form a raining sun inside of you, gets you this huge heat rush all over, then relax you till you reach the ultimate numbness that you won't feel no pain anymore, no suffering, astonishingly stun you like an everlasting joy..

What if they can turn the sky to purple muffins, the air to the sweetest perfume and the surrounding sound to the greatest melody.. without doing or saying anything, simply by their mere presence!
What if they make you lose all sense of logic and fold your brain with this heavy tickling fog, and make you indescribably happy and content with a dumb smile all over your face!
All this happens to you out of a mere presence, only presence!

What if they can spread magical peace in the air, then carelessly leave all this effect behind and go
What if you find yourself cluelessly in love with someone who doesn't have a heart ?!

That's how I feel like:

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

Thursday, June 3, 2010


I'm out for my cig, this is supposed to be my 10 minutes relaxation
They open up the marriage subject (again) - I try to isolate myself and not listen, didn't work
the conversation goes cheap: they talk about marriage expenses (or in their sense of the conversation: How much is a bride nowadays?)
X: "wal! lesh meen ma5ed!!" -> hmmm!!!! Seriously?!!!
another X: "sho homme el banat ma bedhom yensetro" -> I can't even understand how "yensetro" is related to marriage !!!!!!!!!!

Marriage is a misconception in our generation, only few can appreciate and understand the real marriage, the one that comes with love and respect, not the money-oriented marriege folded with ugly fucked up concepts