Dangerously highly addictive

I like you, i wanna love you, and i wanna hate you at the same time for the bad timing, you're dangerously highly addictive, i wanna cry, and i wanna laugh with you.. you're amazing!

Sleep paralysis

I just had my 2nd sleep paralysis last night, i had the first one around a couple of months ago, but it was like a drop in the ocean compared to last night..

The problem with sleep paralysis is that you can never tell what's real and what's not, i woke up so many times just to find out i was still "dreaming"..

It was terrifying, and it was real.. i ended up waking up at 2 am and scared to go back to sleep.. i hope it won't happen again!

Some people strive to achieve lucid dreaming or sleep paralysis, but i say run away as far as you can!

Camping packing checklist

Tissues
Wet wipes
Deodorant
Facial cleanser
Cotton pads
Facial creams
Makeup
Soap
Shampoo
disposable tooth brush
Hair cream
Hair kit, hat
Hair scarf for sun/bandana
Shades
Nail protection, nail oil
Lip balm
Sunscreen
Nail kit
Fan

Tent
Blanket
Inflatable pillow or nick pillow
Air mattress/airbed
(Optional) Hammer for setting up the tents
Microwave bags, Tupper wear for water protection, water proof bag
Headlights
Rope
Sleeping bag
Camping Chair
Portable Speakers
Camera
Extra batteries for the head light
Passport - if traveling
Pen, small notebook
Credit Card, money, id, health insurance card
Portable charger, car charger, charging cable

Towel
Face towel
Shoes
Slippers
Socks
Extra clothes
Swimming suits
Goggles
Snorkeling kit - if snorkeling
Foot splints - for night relief
Sheets or ground cloth - to be put under the airbed

Cigarettes & Lighter
Snacks and Juices
Corn & Mushrooms for BBQ, lettuce for bread replacement (for gluten-intolerant ppl like me)

Cutlery
Aluminum dish for hot bbq
Vitamins

For women - feminine care (pads, wet wipes, tampons..)

still stuck

my heart aches when I think about you and my whole body grieves.
The tragedy however, is that I'm thinking of you often!

not that i want us to be back or anything, I'm sure about the rational decision, but I'm angry on the destiny that put us together and then apart again..

Love in absence

I want your angel

I want the greatest man who made the best woman out of me.
but not the worst man who provoked the worst woman out of me.
I want your angel, your innocence, your love.. i miss you!

Collapsing

Collapsing hopes, falling castles, wasted dreams..

A dance with death on the cliff

I was gonna die when I fell from the mountain.. The problem however, is that I didn't !
That was the second time I have a near death experience, this time with a skull fracture, and for the second time I feel very peaceful and accepting to the idea that I might now be dying.. I felt peace.

I spent almost an hour with an open bleeding head, a fractured skull, a face full of blood, a wounded and shivering body at 0 temperature, waiting for a rope to climb my 10 meter way up, knowing that at each moment I might fall deeper the 1900 meters high.. My insanely shivering body was moving the stones beneath, the ones that earlier have accidentally held me from falling deeper..

After almost 40 minutes from laying there in this situation, I felt that my body was finally surrendering, the energy was massively draining from my body parts, and my conscious couldn't handle this pressure anymore, I felt I was slowly fainting, losing all power.

When the rope came in, I held it like I'd hold my soul, I used my wounded knees to climb my way up on the sharp stones, and after some struggle, I arrived to safety and dropped.

Maybe you should let them fall

"The more I try to fix things the more they fall apart"
"Maybe you should let them fall"
~ The Horse Whisperer