You made my worst dreams come true!
I used to have such nightmares and wake up in the middle of the night with a broken heart to find myself in reality in your arms.
You used to tell me such things would never happen, you used to assure me it's only a bad dream and you will always protect my heart.
You used to tell me you love me as you love life itself.
I loved you as i loved life itself, i was true when i said that, now i hate life.
Stop the nonsense and come back home.
Enough already!
I'm almost dead, taking my last breaths.. enough.
It's 10 pm, I'm already drunk, about to go home with a colleague who's been always interested physically.
All i can think of is him, yet i know it's over long ago, i lost all senses, i have no feelings with others anymore, i have no feelings for him either when he's around, i only miss the good great amazing times we shared together once upon a time. Thhe great old him.
I told him "you made me hate veganism" he got defensive. In my mind now I'm thinking, of course he did, who else did? My grandmother?
He blamed the failure of our love on veganism, he blamed veganism over and over again, it's like all the pain i ever had was bcz of it!
I love being vegan, but i hate that he blamed everything on it.
4th guy to go to bed to, and he's still not there, i lost the power to live, i lost the will to live, there hasn't been a single moment since the damn day where i haven't wished to die, i still wish it everyday.
Fuck him.
