And suddenly once again, i feel peace!
Suddenly, I feel happy for him.
Strangely, remembering his loving comments to her made me smile and see the loving heart in his soul once again.
Suddenly once again, I feel gratitude for what we had and accept that it wasn't meant to grow.
Just internal peace and inner happiness within.
Love you and wish you the best.
After the most recent revelation of knowing he moved on with a new gf since december, as if all my reality collapsed around me fallen apart on me.
I realized now that the binge traveling i had was a subconscious attempt to be around his essense, a connection we once had.
Suddenly, many feelings changed about my upcoming booked trips, now i understand all those nonstop trips, my heart was somehow unknowingly still looking for him.
My mind knew he wasn't there but my heart felt he was, and my heart was apparently wrong, he was, and still is, with her.
I thought I already lost hope, but now i know i just did, only now.
It still hurts and it still aches, i thought i moved on, i thought he was out of my heart, looks like he's still there and still messing me up inside turning all of me upside down.
Turning the page now in better hope of a future without him in my thoughts and heart.
