Collapsing

Collapsing hopes, falling castles, wasted dreams..

A dance with death on the cliff

I was gonna die when I fell from the mountain.. The problem however, is that I didn't !
That was the second time I have a near death experience, this time with a skull fracture, and for the second time I feel very peaceful and accepting to the idea that I might now be dying.. I felt peace.

I spent almost an hour with an open bleeding head, a fractured skull, a face full of blood, a wounded and shivering body at 0 temperature, waiting for a rope to climb my 10 meter way up, knowing that at each moment I might fall deeper the 1900 meters high.. My insanely shivering body was moving the stones beneath, the ones that earlier have accidentally held me from falling deeper..

After almost 40 minutes from laying there in this situation, I felt that my body was finally surrendering, the energy was massively draining from my body parts, and my conscious couldn't handle this pressure anymore, I felt I was slowly fainting, losing all power.

When the rope came in, I held it like I'd hold my soul, I used my wounded knees to climb my way up on the sharp stones, and after some struggle, I arrived to safety and dropped.

Maybe you should let them fall

"The more I try to fix things the more they fall apart"
"Maybe you should let them fall"
~ The Horse Whisperer

[Music] Welcome to my world

Welcome to my world
Step right through the door
Leave your tranquilisers at home
You don't need them anymore
All the drama queens have gone
And the devil got dismayed
He packed up and fled this town
His master plan delayed

Pleasure vs. Pain

We seek pleasure and avoid pain, subconsciously, i'm not sure how psychologically correct is that, but I've learned recently that this applies to myself.
The decisions i make are influenced by those 2 desires, seeking pleasure and avoiding pain, and if both options collide, the priority goes to avoiding pain.

This would probably apply to the "play it safe" people too, the non risk-takers, risking exposing yourself to a potential pain for the sake of a promised pleasure is usually a failed option.
The amount of pain caused by someone/something, is proportional to the amount of pleasure you felt by the same cause. The happier you are, the more sensitive and vulnerable you become.
And i'm so vulnerable at the moment.

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[Music] You fill up my senses, come fill me again.

You fill up my senses like a night in a forest,
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again.

Come let me love you, let me give my life to you,
Let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms.
Let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you
Come let me love you, come love me again.

Let me give my life to you,
Come let me love you, come love me again.

Their love has died

She saw their love & she was sure no god wud kill such beauty..
She felt their passion & she assured no god wud let it die..
Then she found out, there is no god

[Music] Just take me back to the start

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you, tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions

Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles, coming up tails

Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start

How to keep spiders out of your home with Peppermint Oil

Instead of killing spiders and ending a living being life, you can simply use peppermint, it makes the house smells nicer and a more peaceful way :)

How to keep spiders out of your home with Peppermint Oil

Simply fill a spray bottle with tap water and add 10-15 drops of peppermint essential oil. Give it a smell to make sure the water smells minty, if not add a few more drops. Then you simply need to spray the peppermint water in the cracks and gaps where spiders can enter your home.

Spiders do not like peppermint oil. The strong smell will send them scurrying in the other direction and away from your home.

For an even more potent remedy add one or two drops of peppermint oil onto a cotton bud and place in the areas where spiders enter.

It’s as simple as that!