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Thursday, September 30, 2010

Under The Moonlight

Each night, we would lay down on the roof, right under the moonlight.. Talk for hours till we get bored of talking or we get out of words, we wud enjoy the comfort silence and the chilling breeze, or play songs and sing with them and laugh like there's no tomorrow, no sun to rise...

We wud do stupid and silly things and just laugh about them, but most of the time, we're just silently laying down, gazing at the moon and the surrounding stars on the black sky, speaking out our thoughts when we have the energy to, and enjoying each other's company..
I love you my best friend!

[Music] hehe

Fuck You Very Much

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Lost It

"This was freedom. Losing all hope was freedom." - Chuck Palahniuk

Monday, September 27, 2010

Reality Is Perception # 2

"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one." – Albert Einstein

"Everything you see or hear or experience in any way at all is specific to you. You create a universe by perceiving it, so everything in the universe you perceive is specific to you." – Douglas Adams

It was great only while it lasted

Why is it only when ppl die we find out we love them? is it the retrospective effect?
Why do we realize how much we need someone only after they leave?
It is the damn retrospective effect, again. Indeed, things are always exaggerated when you look back at them, like magnifying them, what was good is great, what was bad is misery.
Looking back at the past is tricky..
It was bad only while it lasted..
It was great only while it lasted..

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Angry Thoughts

- Everything happens for a reason, usually to merely piss you off!

- Overthinking gets you no where but to destruction, or depression.. I'd recommend Nike's "Just Do It" better!

- Some things don't just fade away with time.. they stick around till u think it's lasting forever

- They say "The night is darkest before the dawn", but seems like the sun has forgot to rise!

Discovering Me

When i'm happy, I'm hyper and silly..
when i'm in love, i'm flying, calm and quite..
when i'm angry, i'm rude and ugly..
when i'm sleepy, i'm high..
when i'm sad i'm disconnected, isolated..
when i'm alone, i'm not really alone i wud be having arguments and fights with myself that usually end up with depression..
when i'm working, i'm extremely focused..
when playing with my cat, i'm silly as my cat..
when i'm dreaming, i'm in heaven.. when in pain, i'm silently smiling or crying alone.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Pain Kills Pain

It does, temporarily though!
Psychological pain temporarily kills physical pain and vice versa..
The ultimate time to have a piercing or a tattoo is when you're in extreme psychological pain that you will be totally disconnected, separating the mind from feelings that are causing anguish.
And the perfect thing to do at the gym when you get tired or whenever you have to do sth that will cause you physical pain, is to listen to a music that usually gets out your rage and numb your senses..

That's probably why self-harm is being used as a coping mechanism which provides temporary relief of intense feelings such as anxiety, depression, stress, emotional numbness and a sense of failure or self-loathing.

Some ppl wud cut themselves when in overwhelming emotional pain, some would find pleasure in piercing themselves, others wud get high while in pain.. it might as well reflect a way of self-punishment, blaming the self for causing the associated pain, sometimes would be a form of "crying-for-help", although I didn't find anything related to self-punishment during my readings about self-harm, but I still think they are sometimes related.

Self-harm appears -among various other behaviors- in self-cutting, self-piercing, tattoos especially relatively large ones, weed addiction, drugs, alcohol addiction, head-banging and even self-biting.


It often becomes a response to profound and overwhelming emotional pain that cannot be resolved in a more functional way, and may become a means to manage pain, in contrast to the pain that may have been experienced earlier -through abuse- over which we have no control.

And the very funny thing is that some animals when abused, go for self-harming to find relief too!

WOW

Once again, I'm amazed!


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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Reality Is Perception (Excerpt 3)

"Hamlet: Do you see yonder cloud that's almost in shape of a camel?
Polonius: By th' Mass, and 'tis like a camel, indeed.
Hamlet: Methinks it is like a weasel.
Polonius: It is backed like a weasel.
Hamlet: Or like a whale.
Polonius: Very like a whale.

Now the whale, the camel, etc., were not in the sky. The clouds are mere aggregates of water-drops. The whale, etc., were in the minds of Hamlet and Polonius. But they could both see the cloud. Thus an image of the cloud was also in their minds, Moreover they knew it to be a cloud. Yet they could "see" animals in it. This is the important fact about mental phenomena. The physical cloud in the sky is just itself, made of water-drops. The mental cloud is multiplicity. To begin with it is a pattern of brain-processes, just as physical as the water-drops. But it is experienced (i) as a could, (ii) as a whale, (iii) as a camel and so on. We cannot dismiss these as "illusions" for it is just the occurrence of such illusions that we seek to explain - besides why is it illusory to see the thing as a whale but not illusory to see it as a cloud? And how did Hamlet know it was "really" a cloud?"

Reference: Learning, Remembering and Knowing - Patrick Meredith